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Because I Just Want to Moan
Posted on Thursday, March 19, 2009 at 07:32 pm
I just came back from the dentist after going through an almost 2-hour long dental surgery… something that’s been long long long overdue (we’re talking over a decade here). But seeing how I just chucked out about NT$100,000 for this freaking surgery, it’s really no wonder. For those curious, that’s about $3,000 something USD and I’m not even done fixing all my dental issues yet. It’s a complicated story that gives me a headache just thinking about it so I’m leaving it at that.
I am, however, in pain and I’ve got stitches covering the entire bottom left half of my mouth. I can’t talk and I’m barely coherent even via typed words at this moment. Which means it’s probably not a good idea to be trying to work on figuring out how to get this site presentable but we all know how obsessive I can be if I get stuck on something. I did, however, also completely forget my dislike of trying to set up a site from scratch- specifically the basics and the “static” content. There was a time when I enjoyed it… but I think that may have only applied to the first few sites I had built way back when. That kinda lost its appeal eons ago and some gazillions of sites later. My point is, I’ve forgotten how tedious it can be.
I’m the kind of person who just wants to get things running so that I can get on with the real productive part. Unfortunately, I’m also the kind of person who wants to get everything as “complete” as possible before a site even goes online at all. Usually, what that means is my brain goes into one-track mode as I try to speed through it. But what that usually also means is once I’m done and manage to get the site up, I’m so burned out and sick of it that I can’t even do that “real productive part” that I originally wanted to do. I lose either way. Of course, it’s even worse this time around because on top of all that, I’m still trying to remember my *ahem* skillz.
I’m beginning to think this site isn’t ever going to happen. And goodness gracious. It just occurred to me that the title of this post could be completely misunderstood (and likely not in a good way).
Coding Amnesia
Posted on Tuesday, March 17, 2009 at 08:57 pm
A private “offline” blog that uses one of my old recycled layout just to have something working is one thing. To finally decide to turn parts of the blog public and needing to actually create a presentable layout and code it up is another thing. The question: is it possible to forget how to code websites? HELL YES.
I’m sitting here staring at Expression Engine‘s control panel with them templates and tags… and it’s seriously one big WTF to me right now. Yes, it’s a newer version than the one I last used but I can’t even use that as my excuse because the foundation really is still the same. I tried hopping over to the CP at Colorfilter.net to look at what I did and it’s an even bigger WTF because I did some complicated stuff for that site, especially at the backend. My brain is all muddled but if I were to translate it, it’d be along the lines of How the fuck did I do all that?! and that’s seriously pretty damn depressing. Now I’m wondering what I should do. Do I even have the time to go figuring everything out again? Learn that whole foreign language of CSS, XHTML, PHP, and even EE’s tags all over again?
Ugh. Kill meh. This is what happens when I slink off the online world, neglect my websites, and also turn down all freelance website projects that came my way during the last… has it been almost 2 years? It’s making me wonder if I should crawl back into my internet hole and stay dead online.
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